*edit with pictures...compliments of my sister in korea*  good times sung and sam, if you switch their places...it would be sam sung me and my friend "who touched my butt" cathy boys will be boys...Charles, Mike, Jay, Minwoo me and my girl, eun young magic mountain on the hottest day ever... our long lost family, found dont i look just as just as my girls? a really dear senior class of mine... fish fest lock in 2005 broomball the guys...just can't wake up... hey, i blend right in... too much fun i'm having my class one time look at these cute baby faces not babies anymore though me and minwoo, the boy I still owe dinner to for making his 3 pointer after a million tries colton high school for Ann at the beach...these girls started without me! there we go at the block teachers, i gotta love them me and ann retreat leader people great picture of Earl, John, Paul me and my group partner...freakn Daniel Suh... Henry, me, and Paul me and Jason my last days... i'll see you guys again soon! call me and maybe i'll pick up! hehehe! =D longest thing I wrote, and may ever write again on xanga =) so yeah...big change in my life...yesterday was my last day at rkbc, my home church for the past 6 years and such an awesome ministry I belonged to for the past 5 years...rkbc youth group...I knew this day would come but didn't know it would be so hard...I was even nervous going into the service room knowing it would be my last. I learned so much during this process knowing that I would leave but just still wanting to give my whole heart to the kids and my bros and sistas there...or at least trying to! But I learned even more about God and who I am in Christ in the past couple days. As I was driving home last night after an awesome day of fellowship with my friends at rkbc, it was these weird feelings I never felt before all at the same time. I felt alone, scared knowing that the next day would come but just feeling detached from the world, empty like this huge part of my life was taken away from me...and as I thought about it today it was like I broke up wtih my 6 year boyfriend or something! Just emotionally, I couldn't focus, I was distracted, I wanted to just run back to my comfort zone and safety of where I knew everyone again...back to my church... But what i realized was even though I loved and will always love my church because I literally love my whole community at rkbc like sooo much...just like a relationship could be good too...sometimes, when you don't see a future together for wahtever reason...where you think God wants you to be for the long term, even though it's hard, it may be best to count the blessings and move on or something like that... It was so much easier said than done but I know God is with me now as he was with me then...I know that this may be what God wants me to do...trust him and take this step away from where I'm comfortable to be somewhere else He wants me to be now. Dont know where but I just have to go, and he'll lead me. I opened up the Bible this morning just wanting to read whatever I opened to and not my normal reading place...I opened up to Hebrews 11. I was so blessed by that and strengthened by that today. Faith is so hard...living by faith...and I'm so glad that God wants to teach me faith in Him especially when I dont understand his ways sometimes... reading Hebrews reminded me of the awesome retreat our church had last weekend...one of our QT's was Hebrews 11. I have so many good memories of rkbc and I grew there so much. I'm going to miss you guys like crazy forever and like I mentioned yesterday, if I made a huge mistake by leaving and I realize that, Iwould be back in a heartbeat to play and serve and grow with yall again! Through this, I really learned how God is the only one who can fill an emptiness completely and even still, make the joy overflow in times where you can't even see yourself smile Cathy, thank you so much for the CD...the songs remind me of you guys. (whoever has a xanga at church, can you tell her that for me?) So Mi, I really want to say thanks to you for being the best friend I can have during all those times when I was there this past year...the good and tough times. Man, I'm excited to see what God wills how me next. I will post pictures of my beautiful church members once my sister agrees to do it hehehe (are you reading this moonch?) | 
